# Lola, you deserved much more than I could ever give Created On: 01-22-2025 06:57 pm Up:: [[Lola]] Tags:: #note/evergreen🌲 Topics:: [[Parenting (MOC)]] Related:: --- I see you running around the Bryan house, I see you yelling “ready, steady, go!”, I see you recording what you thought were YouTube videos on the iPad as you played with your toys and narrated the adventure in that beautiful mind, I see us cuddling and watching a movie on the couch, I feel your tiny presence in my arms as I lay you into bed, and I kiss you good night as you steal my hat… I’m filled with so much pain and regret knowing that, each day, I wish I could’ve given you more… That I could’ve been more patient, more tender, more present… That I could’ve given you more of the world… You deserved so much more than I could’ve ever given you… We try our best only to realize that our best was never enough, leaving us with inevitable regret. This is the pain of an aware father, one who wished for more for you; more of me for you. I love you, Lola Jayne Fox.