# Trauma recollection exists in various depths Created On: 07-06-2023 09:30 am Up:: [[Trauma]] Tags:: #note/evergreen🌲 Topics:: [[My Trauma]] Related:: [[+ About trauma depths]] --- Traumatic feelings and visualizations do not occur on a single plane: there are various "depths of awareness" that I can feel regarding [[My Trauma]]. To use an metaphor, I can feel the difference between mining at the top of the surface of my trauma events, visualizations, emotions, and connections vs. the bedrock, or the lowest of layers; there is more *resistance*, such as in the form of intangibility, speculation, doubt, etc., at the lower depths of my visualizations and feelings of my trauma. Compare this with surface level ease in which other elements arise. The juxtaposition is *felt* and is difficult to put into words. This has to have a lot to do with one's brain continuing to protect oneself from "layers" of repressed trauma. Even though *the door is open*, there are yet secret hatches to be discovered within the room, and the only way to discover them, like an inverse escape room, is to put all of the puzzle pieces together and unlock those hatches and see more clearly the truths within them.