# We didn’t deserve you, Lola Created On: 09-08-2023 10:02 pm Up:: [[Lola]] Tags:: #note/evergreen🌲 #important #death #thoughtful Topics:: [[Love (MOC)]] Related:: --- [[Lola]] Jayne Fox, your mother, [[Chloe]], and I never deserved the beautiful soul that [[God]] gifted us in you… You’re more apart of who we are than I feel you can say for us… Your mother and I both experienced needless trauma in our lives ([[My Trauma]]) that we had to learn to manage, grow through, and ultimately with throughout our 20s and even into my early 30s now, that you’ve just been so often the ray of sunshine in our life that never has a dull day… You’re such a beautiful soul, my love. And that’s one of the most endearing things I can ever say to you: I love your soul. I see you, I see your essence, I see your potential, I see your brains, I see your kindness, I see your empathy, your love for everyone, for stoic-nature, your affection, your independence, and so much more. We, and especially I, have a lot to apologize to you for… I was really lost when you were between the ages of 1-5. I lost a lot of time with you girl… And there’s not a single day that I don’t wish a single moment of that time with you… I threw it away for a job and career that hardly means anything to me now… [[I needed to lose myself to find myself]]… And you were fundemental in helping me find myself again. Your unconditional love was just everything and more… Being a parent is the deepest form of love you can ever experience, and I dearly want that for you some day. It’s one of the greatest and continual [[Humility|humbling]] experiences in life. You’re inspiring to me - you always have been and you always will be. Thank you for making me the man and the father I have only been made possible to be through you. You’re the quintessence of my life, Lola girl.